It started with the speakers, and it all went down...

It started with the speakers, and it all went downhill from there.

I pulled up YouTube music on my office computer and clicked the play button and waited for the familiar beats. And waited.

And waited.

No music greeted me, nor the happy timbre of my favorite singer’s voice. Looking at the bottom right corner of my screen, a red X covered my speaker icon, and Windows told me there was no audio device attached.

From there, my morning spiraled. Within two hours passed, my boss and I had torn apart three computers. Stress stomped all over my Monday tranquility and laughed as I glared at the electronic equipment littering my desk and office floor.

Life is like that sometimes. Insignificant events can snowball into what feels like traumatic catastrophes.

I’m not saying my computer traumatized me this morning, but the issues we discovered one after another flushed away any hopes we had for a peaceful start to the week.

If the computer wasn’t brand new, I would have taken my trusty hammer and smashed my Dell to bits.

For several minutes, I reveled in the thought of the exciting sounds of crunching plastic as stray pieces bounced to the cherry floor beneath my desk. It would’ve only taken a few swings to work out some of my frustration, but the loss of property—and my job—wasn’t worth it.
Through reason and deep breathing.

That’s how it is with bipolar anger. There isn’t always a rationale, and the tiniest things can set it off.

But you can fight it. You can stay calm and work your way through most problems. For me, it helps that I’m properly medicated.

I’m happy to say my computer works again. By lunchtime, I could finally listen to soothing tunes from my favorites artists.

Music helps keep me stable. It can shift my mood and alter my emotions. Not always, but often enough for me to trust it. I hope you have a tool that’s equally valuable for you to use.

Until next time, keep fighting.
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